I just decided to write about this because I think it will help me better understand my feelings
We both like each other and that just makes me genuinely happy. I’ve been living on cloud 9 because of this and I don’t remember the last time I felt like this. But nothing can happen between us right now due to life. We both know this and were both okay with it but the thing is that I didn’t know or account for is the possibility of me liking her more. Before I always questioned if she did like me even if the signs were blatantly obvious there was just a shadow of a doubt within me. I guess is the reason why I kinda held back my feelings toward her but now that I know how she feels I let the floodgates open. I just want to see her, hold her, and kiss her but I can’t. The worst part is I don’t know when the next time I would be able to do any of those things and it sucks. I don’t miss her though. I don’t miss her because I can still remember being with her and her company. It also helps that I get to see her via FaceTime. But that will change and I wonder how I will react to it.